The Land of Isnt's

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A wise woman named Bettie Spruill once said, "A possibility is something that isn't." I live infinite possibilities every day. It's like riding a roller coaster, blindfolded and secure from the safety of the harness and reliability of the long-standing contraption. There is almost a childish laugh as I am holding the bar while the car inches up to the peak, and I anticipate the drop. The thrill of free-falling and then abruptly landing safely and unharmed causes me to want to ride it over and over again.

I know as I live that everything is going to end up the way it is going to end up. At least that is what I believe and what works for me. I choose to know that even though I have no idea how the next board will be laid in front of me so I can take one more step forward, it will be there, nonetheless, when I take that step. It isn't until it is. And it only is because I know it to be so.

One of the Secret Rules of Life I have taught my children is "What you say is what it could be." The other day my two youngest were arguing with each other and saying very negative things, gross and cruel things. I called them into my office right away to remind them of the rule (I really did and still do call them the Secret Rules of Life). I told them their tongue is like a crayon, and every morning they wake up with a blank piece of paper. And every time they speak words, they show up on the paper in the form of pictures and shapes and colors. They will show up however you say it will be. So what kind of picture will you choose to create each day? The best part is that you can fill the paper however you want to. And if you don't like it, you can do it entirely different the next time. The white piece of paper isn't until it is.

A close friend of mine, Jot Bilkhu, told me a few months back, "We are just making this all up along the way." It reminded me of one of my favorite childhood movies The Neverending Story (go watch it if you haven't). The story Sebastian read in the book was the story that wasn't until it was. It was his thoughts and ideas and hopes and dreams and desires and wants. And without knowing how he would get to the next step, or even that there was even a step to be taken, he is right where he is supposed to be.

Some call this faith. And in a way I don't disagree. I understand faith to mean the belief in things unseen. I mean, just because we do not see it doesn't mean it isn't there. I believe in Jesus and God and Angels and demons. I believe the Eiffel Tower is in Paris. What I am talking about is knowing the ability of things non-existent, not just things we cannot see. And it's about making it to be what you want it to be, not just what happens. Although, everything that happens, happens exactly how it happens, and whether good or bad, it is necessary to have happened for whatever comes next.

I must say, knowing that there will be a next place for me to step regardless of the circumstances or ideas of other people about the steps I take. No matter what. The gift is that I don't have to know how it's going to happen. I just get to show up everyday and participate in my life (Jot said this to me, too.). As long as I am showing up, the Universe will respond to my level of commitment (Okay, Jot said all of this.). I'm gonna get out what I put in. I reap what I sow. And so on, and so forth.

To live in the Land of Isnt's has taken me all the way up to the final moment, right when I think I am going to crash. And then the ride stops, and the staff directs me off the ride to gather my personal belongings. I remember the split second when I almost did but didn't give in, and then I chuckle, again. This time because it always ends the same: it is exactly what it isn't. Until it is.

Ponder me that.