We Choose (Even What Hurts): The Intelligence of Being
- Brianna Miller
- Nov 3
- 5 min read
by Brianna Miller — On Paper LLC
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Most people believe life happens to them.
The parents we were given. The things we didn’t ask for. The pain that shaped us. The love that didn’t stay.
But what if none of it was random?
What if, at the deepest level, we chose it all—not from the mind, but from the soul?
I don’t mean chose as in control.
I mean chose as in design.
A choice of context. A choice of consciousness.
A choice to learn something that could only be learned through that experience, with those people, in that body, during this time.
That is where Ontological Intelligence™ begins.
The Study of Being
Ontology is the study of being.
Ontological Intelligence is the lived awareness that who we are being determines what becomes possible.
To understand this, we have to separate being from doing.
Most people try to change their lives through effort, strategy, or performance.
They try to do their way into a new identity.
But doing without being creates exhaustion, not transformation.
Ontology asks a different question:
Who is doing the doing?
When being shifts, doing follows.
Not from force, but from alignment.
Ontological Intelligence is the capacity to return to awareness, responsibility, and choice — especially when life is uncertain or uncomfortable.
This intelligence is not measured by achievement.
It is measured by response:
Who are you when things fall apart?
When you feel misunderstood, unseen, or afraid?
When you cannot predict or control the outcome?
Awareness is the first access point.
The moment you notice yourself reacting, defending, or collapsing, you have already stepped into intelligence.
You have shifted from being lived by your patterns to consciously living your life.
Being is not isolated. It is relational.
We exist within a larger ecology — relational, systemic, and internal.
Our being interacts with our environment, our histories, and one another.
Every moment becomes information about who we are being in a world we are co-creating.
It shows up in the pause between stimulus and response — in the subtle space where choice lives.
We Choose Our Parents
Our parents are often the first teachers in the classroom of being.
They are the original context through which we learn belonging, identity, safety, and contradiction.
To view them through the lens of Ontological Intelligence is not to excuse harm or deny impact.
It is to recognize that they were part of the setting in which we began to wake up to who we are.
We do not choose parents for comfort.
We choose them for curriculum.
Their limitations mirror what we came here to expand.
Their wounds reveal what we came here to heal.
Their love — even when uneven or incomplete — shows us where we are being called to become love ourselves.
When we stop trying to rewrite who they were and instead extract the learning we needed, we move from reaction into authorship.
We stop inheriting their story and begin writing our own.
Not because they were right.
But because we are ready to evolve.
We Choose—Even What Hurts
This is where many people pause.
“How could I have chosen something that broke me?
”It’s a fair and sacred question.
To say we choose even what hurts is not to say we wanted it, deserved it, or invited harm.
It’s to recognize that within the field of being, there are levels of choice—some conscious, some not yet awake.
From the surface of our human lives, none of us would choose pain.
We would never choose abuse, betrayal, or loss.
But from the deeper intelligence of being—the part of us that is eternal and whole—something in us may choose the context that would awaken a strength, voice, or compassion that could not have been formed in any other way.
This isn’t about blame. It’s about authorship.
It’s about reclaiming power from what tried to define us.
That doesn’t mean bypassing the body or minimizing the pain.
It means allowing healing to become the way we re-enter authorship.
To choose, now, who we will be in relationship to what has already happened.
We cannot always choose what occurred.
But we can always choose who we become because of it.
That is the heart of Ontological Intelligence.
Once we begin to see pain as a teacher rather than a sentence, we regain access to the smallest and most immediate form of choice:
We Choose Our Feelings
No one can make you feel anything you do not allow.
People can provoke, influence, or trigger — but the feeling belongs to you.
It is the meaning you assign that gives emotion its shape.
That is what Ontological Intelligence invites:
to notice the instant between stimulus and response, and realize that in that space, you are the author.
When someone says, “They made me feel small,” what they are really saying is,
“I believed their story about me.”
When we remember that feelings are generated from within, we stop outsourcing our emotional sovereignty.
This isn’t about denying emotion — it’s about owning it.
To say, “I feel anger,” is awareness.
To say, “I choose how I relate to this moment,” is power.
Every feeling is feedback, revealing where we are aligned with our being — and where we are not.
We cannot control the world,
but we can choose the stance from which we meet it.
And that choice — moment to moment — is how being becomes practice.
Choosing as Practice
When we practice Ontological Intelligence, we stop fighting life.
We stop trying to fix what happened and start listening to what it’s teaching us.
We learn to choose consciously — how to feel, how to respond, how to create.
We realize we have always been both the student and the designer of our own curriculum.
That’s the quiet miracle of this work.
It doesn’t erase pain.
It restores power.
Because when you know you are the chooser —even of your parents, your feelings, and your response to what hurt you —you stop living as a reaction and start living as a creation.
That is Ontological Intelligence™.
That is The Possibility Practice™.
And that is the work we do at On Paper LLC.
If This Resonates
Explore this work at On Paper LLC — where being creates structure, and structure creates possibility.
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Everything you’re waiting for is already waiting for who you are willing to be.
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